Birthday reflections can be stressful for me, especially at such a big benchmark year like 25. I’ve been 25 for a few weeks now, and to be honest, I was in too much of a panic to think straight and do any reasonable reflections. I’ve always been big on timelines, and setting high goals for myself. When I was 18 and I thought about where I would be at 25, has been completely different than who I am today. I’d thought I would be at a big company somewhere working my butt off (because I am a total work horse) and I would have everything figured out. I actually did that early on at age 22, and completely hated my life and no longer seeing that big goal I’ve once dreamt about. To no surprise, I left that job and realized no amount of raise would make me happy there.
Fast forward to about 2 years later, I’ve done all sorts of random jobs that I didn’t think I had enough skills to do. In addition to picking up temp jobs and meeting people like me along the way, I have taken pictures for e-commerce photoshoots, wedding photography, and dipping my toes in marketing and graphic design.
I realized I’ve been so busy focusing on things I haven’t yet accomplished, that I forget to reflect on all the things I have done. I once thought I would have it all figured out at 25, but I realized I’ve barely just begun living.
Happy Birthday to me 🙂